Sunday, March 19, 2017

Happy Homemaker Monday for March 20th, 2017

Welcome to this week's Happy Homemaker Monday.  I am linking up with Sandra at Diary of a SAHM.  

The weather:::
 We've just finished our last snow for the winter.  It's been mild here in the Detroit area for most of the season.  Today will be 43 and cloudy, but later this week, close to 60! 

On my reading pile:::

I just finished "Homegoing" by Yaa Gyasi.  It is a wonderfully complex book, but due to what I've been going through, it took me two months to read it and I would sometimes get lost due to the multiple narrators.  However, I highly recommend it.

I am also rereading (albeit very slowly)  Gone with the Wind - my favorite book of all time.

Amazon Prime has a program called Kindle First where they offer you a free e-book on the first of each month that has not been released yet.  This month I chose the book "The Practice House" by Laura McNeal. It's about a Scottish woman who becomes a teacher in a one-room schoolhouse in Kansas during the dust bowl period.  I'm about 1/4 of the way through and enjoying it so far.

I'm doing the Modern Mrs. Darcy 2017 Reading Challenge, Reading for Growth.  

Movies or Shows I watched this weekend:::
Emily (my 17yo) and I watched "Gettysburg" last night.  We just started an in-depth study of the Civil War for a research paper she will be writing at the end of the term.  She was "soooooo bored" at the beginning of the movie, but she soon came around :)

On my TV:::
Since my mom's death last month, I can't watch everything I normally watch.  I need more mind-numbing t.v.
*Bring It
CURRENT BINGE WATCH:  *Rewatching Dance Moms

On the menu for this week:::

Breakfasts will be boiled eggs with turkey sausage or oatmeal, lunches will be either chef salad, baked fish with rice and veggies, or ham and swiss roll-ups

Sunday:  Swedish meatballs over noodles, green beans
Monday:  Bubble up pizza, carrots with ranch
Tuesday: Sazon pork chops with olives and potatoes (I love this!)
Wednesday:  Chili dogs and tater tots (not every night is gourmet, lol)
Thursday: Shepard's Pie (one for us, one for my dad)
Friday:  Pesto chicken and penne pasta  with steamed broccoli
Saturday:  Family dinner out
Sunday: Spaghetti and meatballs with broccoli and garlic bread

On my to do list:::

  • Declutter living room (put things where they belong!) 
  • Fill bird feeder  
  • Read
  • Watch Dance Moms 
  • Work in my War Binder (I'll be doing a post on this soon) 
  • Laundry 
  • Cook ahead for the week 
  • Catch up on some YouTube videos
  • Lesson Plan 

What I am crafting or creating:::
I am still writing my novel (I took a long break due to my mom's illness and passing) and also some song lyrics and music.

My current passion is planner decorating, bullet journals, and my war binder. These things have really kept me sane over the past several months.  More on all of those to come!

Happening this week:::

  • Working M-F 8-4
  • Homeschooling w/ Emme 
  • Furniture shopping with my sister for my dad 
  • Trip to the library 
  • Celebrating my sister's birthday 

Looking around the house:::

Sunday (when I'm typing this) is my cleaning day, so things are a bit of a mess right now.  By the end of the day, things should be looking pretty good ;)

From the camera:::

We had a HUGE wind storm last week that knocked out power across Michigan, over 1/2-million just in my area alone!  68-mph in my city! This is the 7-11 sign near my house.  Trees uprooted, tons of damage, etc.  It was the largest power outage DTE has had in our history! My dad's gate to the privacy fence was ripped off the hinges.  I'm thankful that we never lost power at my house!

What I'm wearing today:::
Cleaning attire!  Yoga pants and a t-shirt.  Hot mama!  lol

One of my simple pleasures:::
 Watching the bird feeder I recently placed at the front of my house.  It's mostly just little sparrows and some black-capped chickadees, but I do get the gift of a cardinal from time to time! (Shortly after writing this, a gorgeous cardinal came and sat on top of the feeder!  <3  ) 

Bible verse, Devotional::: 
I've been following a scripture writing plan as well as Arabah Joy's Praying the 40-promises of the cross and Her Binder Project (HIGHLY recommend - free every month!!!!) where we are studying Philippians this month, one of my favorite books of the Bible. 

Friday, March 17, 2017

God Never Gives You More Than You Can Handle

It's been five months since my last post.  I've thought about writing many times, but then somehow I just couldn't seem to find the will.

In the past five months:

*I've had two surgeries
*My oldest was diagnosed with autism (albeit very high functioning)
*My oldest received a confirming diagnosis of depression, general and social anxiety, and something else God help me I can't remember the name of
*My oldest daughter was diagnosed with PCOS
*My mother with diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer with mets to the brain, stomach, etc.
*My mother was diagnosed with a huge abdominal aortic aneurysm
*I spent 6 weeks going to chemo and radiation with my mother
*I was nearly fired from my job for cutting my hours to be with my mother
*I spent the weekend sleeping at the hospital while my mother was an inpatient getting diagnosed with atrial fibrillation
* I called an ambulance when my mother woke up one morning and could barely walk or breath
*I held my mom's hand as she took her last breath and her heart slowly stopped
*I dealt with the funeral home to carry out her final wishes
* I kept the extended family up-to-date on her condition throughout
*I planned and carried out her memorial service

Some people would have wanted to write during all of this, writing being very cathartic.  However, it was (is) all too painful for me, so I have been in hiding.

But I am ready to come back to my blog now.  So many other things happened during that time frame as well.  One of my good friends was in the hospital and rehab center for nearly a month with pneumonia, she was intubated and put in a medically-induced coma.  My best friend's mother had a heart attack and was in the ICU for several days.  Two of my good friends were having marital problems, one is near divorce.  Another close friend of mine has his father in the hospital with a malignancy on his pancreas as well as a post-op infection.  My best friend at work is handing in her resignation and I don't know how I will face this place without her.

During my mom's illness and even the week after her death - God gave me incredible supernatural strength to handle everything.  I've never been so strong in my life.  However, this past month I've felt broken almost every single day.  And I know that is expected after the loss of someone so close.  But I have three children (20, 18, 17) who need me to get back to a sense of normalcy.  They are grieving too.  They need me to be the strong one.  To pave the road for them to follow back to ordinary life.  So I am attempting to do this.  It hasn't quite worked yet.  But I will keep trying, because I have to.

Sunday, October 2, 2016

Happy Homemaker Monday & Menu Plan Monday - October 3rd

MONDAY October 3rd, 2016 

Today I am linking with Sandra for Happy Homemaker Monday 

                                       And Organizing Junkie's Menu Plan Monday 

In the kitchen...On the menu this week::::

Monday:  Over my parents for my nephew's birthday 

Tuesday:  Swedish meatballs with egg noodles and steamed broccoli 

Wednesday:  Dinner with family 

Saturday:  Dinner with parents again! 

The weather outside is:::: Fall like.  We are just getting out of week-long rainy weather with lots of flooding. 

On the breakfast plate this morning:::: BReakfast casserole 

As I look outside my window::: Sunny and cool.  

Right now I am:::: Meal prepping for the week. 

TO DO::::
Piano practice

Currently reading:::: A couple of ARCs (I am behind) and "Sensible Shoes", which is really good so far. 

On the TV today:::: Blacklist

I am thinking..About my health - another crisis in the midst.  *sigh* 

I am learning... To really appreciate relationships. 

A moment from my day... I had a bad day at work.  Trying to shake it off, but it's lingering :/ 

Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals::::

Monday, September 12, 2016

Happy Homemaker Monday - September 12th

MONDAY September 12th, 2016 

Today I am linking with Sandra for Happy Homemaker Monday 

In the kitchen...On the menu this week::::

Monday:  Chicken drumsticks, roasted Brussels sprouts, red potatoes and carrots, salad 

Tuesday:  Chicken Tikka Masala over rice, salad 

Wednesday:  Dinner with family 

Thursday:  Beef stroganoff and green beans 

Friday:  Broiled flounder, wild rice, broccoli 

Saturday:  Dinner with parents again! 

Sunday: Baked rigatoni and steamed Italian vegetables 

The weather outside is:::: Cooling off.  Blue skies and 70s. 

On the breakfast plate this morning:::: Egg and turkey bacon sandwich with avocado

As I look outside my window::: Sunny.  Just the smallest hint of leaves turning on one or two trees. 

Right now I am:::: Just got home from work.  Going to get dinner in the oven and then practice the piano for awhile. 

TO DO::::
Piano practice

Currently reading:::: I am just finishing up "Designer Handbag in A Garbage Dump" - it's actually quite good. 

On the TV today:::: Dead Files

I am thinking..WAY too much.  Can we say "mid-life crisis"?  That's me. 

I am learning... Just started piano lessons.  I've wanted to learn for 20 years.  A friend talked me into it. 

A moment from my day... I had a bad day at work.  Trying to shake it off, but it's lingering :/ 

Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals::::
A friend shared this Psalm with me last week, saying that it helped him when he had hard times.  So I've been holding on to it since then 

Monday, August 29, 2016

Happy Homemaker Monday - August 29th, 2016


Today I am linking with Sandra for Happy Homemaker Monday as well as Organizing Junkie for Meal Plan Monday 

On the weather front::: Mid-80s and sunny for the next couple of days.  Summer has been great - but I am read for fall weather! 

On my bedside table::: My Kindle, phone, a planner, some headphones and a pink Sharpie.  

On my TV::: Season 6 of Gilmore Girls.  Also looking forward to fall t.v.! 

Thinking and pondering:::: About a boy.  :) 

Listening to:::: Gilmore Girls, the air conditioner, and my neighbor mowing the lawn. 
Favorite Youtube Video last week::: 

On the menu for this week:::

Monday:  Beef and cabbage Yatsobi 

Tuesday:  Grilled turkey burgers and baked seasoned fries 

Wednesday:  Dinner with family 

Thursday:  Chicken curry with vegetables over rice 

Friday:  Crispy ranch chicken, roasted potatoes and Brussels sprouts 

Saturday:  Dinner with parents again! 

Sunday: Tilapia with steamed vegetables and cheddar broccoli rice 

On my To Do List:::
*Mop kitchen floor
*Two loads of laundry
*Grill chicken for salads 
*Wash dishes
*Sweep living room floor 
Looking forward to::: Autumn. 
What I plan on doing for myself this week::: Painting my nails, going to the gym, reading. 

Favorite photo::: 

Lesson learned the past few days::: I think I'm still in the midst of learning it. 

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Happy Homemaker Monday August 22nd, 2016


Today I am linking with Sandra for Happy Homemaker Monday 

In the kitchen...On the menu this week::::

Monday:  Baked pasta with green salad

Tuesday:  Oven-baked chicken fajitas, cucumber salad 

Wednesday:  Dinner with family 

Thursday:  Emily's Request:  Chicken Pad Thai with an Asian chopped salad 

Friday: Chicken sausage with potatoes, peppers, onions

Saturday:  Dinner with family

Sunday: Emily's choice again:  Jambalaya, cucumber salad 

The weather outside is:::: Gorgeous!  The humidity and heat has finally broken and it is perfect :) 

On the breakfast plate this morning:::: Scrambled eggs with turkey bacon. 

As I look outside my window::: More gorgeousness!

Right now I am:::: At work!  Listening to an audio-book.  

As I look around the house:::: Well ... I know I need to mop the floors... 

Currently reading:::: Finishing up "To Kill A Mockingbird", Listening to "Underground Railroad" - Oprah's book pick this month.  

On the TV today:::: Gilmore Girls 

I am thinking.. about long eyelashes and freckles 

I am thankful... for all the blessings that the Lord has given me 

One of my favorite things... unexpected fields of flowers

I am wearing... Boss is on vacation - so jeans and a t-shirt

I am learning... to trust myself

In the schoolroom... Jake starts college next Monday.  Emily starts 11th grade.  I have the first week of lesson planning done - I want to see how the pace goes before planning more.  

In the garden... What garden?  First it was dry for weeks and weeks and then a few torrential downpours.  My rosemary is doing well, as are my bird-seed sunflowers and a few others....

A moment from my day... Worked out in the dungeon gym this morning while watching Joyce Meyer

Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals:::: Started the Bible study "Living in Jesus" this morning.  

Have a very blessed week with your families!  


Thursday, August 18, 2016

Happy & Content or Restless?

Yes, I've been restless, but only just recently.  I'd like to think that I'm content - and oh how I come off as such - but truly, God's nudges have become a cyclone of self lambasting. How far back into the depths of my subconscious can I secret away all that He has told me in the past years?  The multitude of soft butterfly wing reminders building into the torrent of wind-whipped waves coursing through the vast, cavernous contours of my mind?  I'm content when I ignore the nudges.  When I ignore what HE wants me to do.....

Full Definition of restless

  1. 1:  lacking or denying rest :  uneasy <a restless night>
  2. 2:  continuously moving :  unquiet <the restless sea>
  3. 3:  characterized by or manifesting unrest especially of mind<restless pacing>also :  changefuldiscontented

I'm irritated.  Mostly with myself.  Ok, completely with myself.  The scripture that ALWAYS comes to mind when I need to find one that is a mirror reflection of my life, has to be Romans 7:15-25.

15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.cFor I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!

I'm so blessed I don't even know what to do with myself.  I need to act on that.  Being a Christian is a combination of many things - and one of those things is action.  God has been so good to me that He has even broken down what He wants from me into baby steps.  And I have chosen to pretty much ignore even the most minute request.  It's been over 4 years since I was clear on my purpose.  

I had a conversation about a week ago.  A conversation that I feel was another one of God's soft whispers of encouragement.  I was lamenting over the fact that as much as I always felt that music was my calling, an illness made it impossible for me to ever play the flute again.  I already know what God has told me the solution to this is; however, it wasn't until I heard it from someone else, a reminder of who I am, deep in the lightest and brightest part of my soul - that there are other options in creating music.  In composing the music that glitters through my head when I'm doing mundane tasks, waking me from a deep sleep or haunting me until I finally sit and put lyrics to the melody.  

I live a happy life.  I do.  I'm crazy in love with my kids.  I love the simplicity of working and coming home to them.  To spending time with family.  Quiet nights reading.  But that JOY that you can only feel when the gift God has given you is flowing through your veins and out of your hands and your mind crackles with electric ideas that you KNOW were given to you by Someone Greater - THAT JOY - that is what I am restless for. And what I'm seeking.