Being a woman of faith, mental illness can be a tricky subject. I have a horrible habit of blaming myself for not being "good enough" for God to heal my depression and anxiety. I feel like if I tick all the boxes: Bible study, Praise and Worship, watching Joyce Meyer and Priscilla Shirer, praying, and doing things that align with my calling that God will SURELY "fix me." And you know what? There are people who find healing through faith, and I love that for them. But it isn't for me to know why my anxiety remains. Today, I'm going to start looking into some behavior modifications and changes I want to make to see if my anxiety over certain work tasks will make me less miserable. Because I don't want to lose my job or leave my job - but I also don't want to feel dread in my gut at the thought of signing in to our systems each morning either. I have spent the last month reading and watching Mel Robbins, Priscilla Shirer, Ryan Holiday, and Chrystal ...
