This has been such a stressful week at work. I've been coming home, having dinner and going to bed at 7 p.m. I see this cycle in my life - never finding balance. It seems like my complaints and issues from five years ago are the exact same complaints I have now.
I so want to be a strong woman of God! I want to do what He has called me to do. I want to live the way the Holy Spirit directs me, and not where my worldly, humanly flesh does. Yet I keep doing exactly what I do not want to do!
Even Paul felt this way. He held such favor with the Lord yet he had feelings of self-annoyance just like I do. Guilt over the choices made. Yearning to do what is right.
Does anyone else feel this way? I am a working mom of three teenagers. Daily I feel like I am failing and I want to be better. Do better. I am laying myself bare because I need to be held accountable.
I am going to work on this over the weekend. I am going to pray and start my journey to becoming a Strong Woman of God. I'm not sure if I am supposed to focus on one area of my life at a time or if I am supposed to take baby steps in all areas. But I am going to listen to Him.